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Marwa El Nahhas's avatar

So important to regulate the nervous system and ground yourself. Quite the challenge, tho. It takes guts to let go of control and live in the here and now. But it's so freeing. And really, all you can do, as control doesn't really exist.

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

Thanks for reading and leaving a comment Marwa!

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Saved by Grace's avatar

My mum used to say 'I just don't want to do anything wrong' right up until she died at 81. It used to make me sad and I can see how disconnected she was from how she felt. I've been the same, but am now slowly building self trust and learning how to be with the sensations in my body. It's so tough at times and I've been in flight mode so much, but I'm slowly able to stay, which I know is leading me towards integration. Thank you for this reflection 🙂 Karen

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

Hi Karen. I celebrate loudly with you trying something different than what you saw and learnt from the external world. That takes so much guts! It’s the definition of self reclamation and never too late to do it. You are an inspiration ✊🏼

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Girl I Am Now's avatar

This resonated deeply for me as this is what I am currently going through. Unlearning 40 years of programming and beliefs. Getting to know the parts of me that have been afraid I will continue to abandon them. Thank you for sharing.

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

Hi and thanks a lot for this personal reflection. This work of turning towards our parts rather than away from them, is so so hard and brave. I celebrate you for being on this path.

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Dr. Bronce Rice's avatar

Alexandra - This is such an amazingly grounded and compassionate take on self-trust. I especially appreciate how you separate trust from certainty and instead root it in the body, in a type of kind and loving presence.

That line about trust being an experience, not a verdict, is spot on. It’s a great reminder that we don’t have to have all the answers to stay with ourselves - Thank God right! Thank you for highlighting this so clearly.

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

Thank you for reading Bronce and for sharing your thoughts on this. I like this idea of trust being an experience we find in our bodies and in our belonging to this earth. Our very existence here seems to be an act of trust in itself, if I am to get a bit spiritual 😅

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Charles Callis's avatar

I was not allowed to be angry as a child so for a long time the only way I knew I was angry about something was when I had pain in my teeth! As Van de Bessel says, the body holds the score.

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

Hi Charles. Thanks for this, so interesting you’ve been able to find the connection between your anger and the pain in your teeth. Yes, the body will always show us. How is your experience of anger nowadays?

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Charles Callis's avatar

I haven’t had any pain in my teeth for a few years now so I guess I’m not burying it anymore. And since I’ve been more accepting of what life throws at me, I’ve been less angry. Interesting question. I think some big knocks knocked it out of me and now that I am practising forgiveness more rigorously, it doesn’t get much of a start. Thanks for asking.

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

It’s curious how the moment we stop resisting or suppressing, that energy (emotions, feeling), finds a way to move, redirect itself. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼

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Ann's avatar

Saved. Thank you !

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Alexandra Lais's avatar

Let me know what you think of it Ann.

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